Thursday, 13 November 2014


In a recent article I read earlier, it seems like the greatest problem afflicting workplaces everywhere is apathy. It not only affects myself as an employee in both the public (Macquarie University) and private sector (IELTS Australia) but as a student, as a brother, indeed as a human being, occasionally seeping into every part being if I stay motionless in paralysis.

Its days like that that an impending sense of urgency is ignored and I succumb to the rolling waves of flippant disregard for my future and the world at large,

In the smaller scope of my life this problem has inhibited my growth as a human being. It isn't simply a case of "I don't feel like doing it today"; its a systemic problem I carry in days on end wanting to accomplish nothing despite my rationale and suppressed will to do so. This year in particular has been plagued by this sensation. Travelling South Korea and America aside, which were amazing experiences in and of themselves, both semesters for the first time have felt hollow. The circle of friends I have made are mostly objectively poor quality people who look to be content in mediocrity, with and any idea of pushing each other to improve lost in the wilderness. I don't know how I became to accept such a poisonous attribute of my psyche and indeed incorporate it into my every day life, but its here and I have to get rid of it. 

This month was also the first time I legitimately failed an interview. Twice, in fact. I first applied for a secondary student administration role at the central unit for student inquiries. The familiar feeling of nervousness and terpidation emerged after the first, and the second failed beyond my control, as I had actually passed it but the role was postponed into a new period. This feeling of failure is but a small tip of the pervasive sense that many others feel, its a new feeling that I should learn to have to be commonplace and draw experience from. 

In the larger scope it impacts how decisions are made on a grand scale. Political apathy from the citizens of this very great country I live in (Australia) has rendered many of our values and hard fought for freedoms invalid and increasingly eroded as we apparently look on, oblivious. This is clearly depicted in the boiling frog scenario. It goes roughly like this;

"If a frog jumps into a boiling pot of water, it reacts immediately and jumps straight out, to exist the situation as quickly as possible. However, if the frog stays in a pot filled with cold water, and incrementally heats up, the frog does not realise, and ends up being boiled alive."

I guess its understandable that this apathy exists. Many of us even in the first world must attend to our immediate needs of food and shelter, and tending to our families before we are even able to contemplate the effect that such large decisions will have on our lives. Additionally, despite an increasingly smaller world many of our leaders seem to look so faraway and detached from the average citizen, that such actions in that span of power should have little or no effect on our everyday lives. The first point is fair, but I find the second to be moot, simply in the fact that visible changes certainly occur if one just opens their eyes to it. In can be said that our lives continue to increase in complexity despite the great advances in technology that have taken place. Once we were thought to only be working 4 days a week for 6 hours a day but theorists in the 1960's, how far away from the truth has been realised today.

As a society we are stressed, mental illness problems have exploded into the 21st century in place of the natural population killing epidemics (not that they have been wiped out completely, check out the Avian flu and Ebola). Its a problem that will continue to persist in the foreseeable future.

This concludes 2014. I guess its unique for being the first, truly downtrodden restrospective account of the year I've had on this blog, and in my lifetime of the only seriously grounded years of my life. Its time to win.